Even More Relationships

I became infatuated with someone. I had not felt that way since January, when A had me in her grip. I interpret this infatuation as a good sign: I know I am very interested in someone -- to the natural extreme.

I do not think she is as interested in me as I am in her. I actually do not know what she thinks because her response rate is unreliable, just like many other girls I know. This is curious, and I wonder what these girls have or do not have in mind when they do not respond to messages -- maybe these days these unresponsive people stand out more because I am increasingly around very responsive people that answer calls, texts and emails fast. At the very least, I would like to take her out and learn about what she is about. Dinner and another activity would be nice.

I wonder what the infatuation triggers are for me. Well, M, A and R are incredibly beautiful girls. They had degrees of responsiveness and they had sweeter dispositions. They were not cynical or closed off completely. They were younger than me too. They were all Hong Kong Chinese to degrees.

Finally, on the topic of relationships, my brother, mother and I were talking over Christmas. We continue to be more open with each other: I am especially, implicitly, hearing about my brother's felt needs: what triggered him to anger when I called him last was his "reminding" me to pay off my student loans so my mom would not have to. That matter has been settled between my mother and me; but why my brother reacted to my delinquency in such a way has not been brought to light. Indeed, he said he was disappointed in me: that is a potent sign of...something in him.

I am contending for my family, and my dating life this year. I fast to have the Father move in me powerfully in these areas of my life.